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| my grandma |
| 06.03.04 (6:01 pm) [edit] |
well i'm finally going to write down how i'm feeling about my grandma and just before she died! :cry:
ok, well my grandma is my mom's mom. she is/was basically my 2nd mom. she was always around, lived close by, helped out with us a lot, and was just always there supporting me and my sisters threw everything! everyone tells me how my grandma would go on and talk about us to them all the time and how proud of us she was. basically she would tell them that we are her world. now hearing that makes me really sad.
anyways, my grandma had a stroke when i was in the 6th grade. it damaged her a lot. she couldn't talk right anymore. she knew what she was trying to say, but the words didn't come out right anymore.
after she had her stroke we moved her right across the street from us. that way if she ever needed anything we wouldn't be too far away for her. i think it was for the best. then last year we moved her into a retirement home. my grandma was [b]always [/b] very out going and would do things that she probably shouldn't be. but no one could stop her. so we put her in the home so that their was always someone around to watch her to make sure nothing happened to her.
well just a few days after we moved her into the home she broke her hip. she was rushed to the hospital and they gave her hip surgery. she came out of it great. the only bad thing was she couldn't move.
then they moved her to bortz to recover. my grandma did [u]not [/u]want to be there. so she was trying to get up, she ripped the ivy out of her arm and was unplugging things from the wall. my mom and the people working there had to restrain her.
my mom didn't tell me what was going on until my grandma got out of surgery. i was [b]very [/b]pissed off at her! i hate that she lies to me about things like that. i went into town and got amanda. she and i went up to bortz at 12am. we stayed there with my mom and my cousin. it was really weird because my grandma was just laying there and she was making all sorts of weird noises.
sorry i have to go....i'll finish this later!
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| tuck |
| 06.03.04 (5:42 pm) [edit] |
tuck and roll, that was a lot of fun. if you don't know tuck is jackie and i'm roll...i think that i already explained that in another entry. anyways, jackie and i became really good friends during basketball. it was [b]SOO[/b] much fun. basically we just goofed around and didn't really care what other people thought. we were just having a good time. jackie was there for me a lot when i needed her and she definitely one of the people i turned to when i needed someone. she was the first person that i went to the day i sat with my grandma at bortz..an old folks recovery place..i'll explain more about that later.
well i was sitting there with my grandma and i just couldn't handle being in the room anymore..so i left. the first place i went was jackie's. she knew that i was really upset and really sad so we kinda talked about it but then we went out to mike's house with geoff and watched a movie. basically she was trying to get my whole grandma thing off my mind. then that night was the night my grandma died. when i found out i just started balling my eyes out. jackie rushed me to bortz and the whole time she was telling me that i'm ok and she held my hand the whole way into town. she was going over 90mph to get there.
after that jackie and i hung out places and talked..we always have SOO much fun when we are together. i remember one time we were at lauren's house with a bunch of people. jackie and i decided just to be stupid and have fun. so we were doing our tuck and roll thing. then we ran around the house screaming! it was SO much fun! then we were upstairs goofing around and we were pretending to be indians...except i didn't want to do it, and jackie started doing it and then started yelling at me and hitting me cuz i didn't do it. so then we did.
i don't know, jackie was and is one of my best friends. nothing will change that. lately it seems that we haven't been that close. i mean, she and i hung out all the time back in the day...haha. but now...i don't know. it just makes me really sad. i miss our friendship. it was one of the best friendships i've ever had! but no matter what i'm here for her. i'm just hoping things will start to go back to the way they were cuz jackie is awesome!
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| fallon |
| 06.02.04 (6:53 pm) [edit] |
wow, what do i say about fallon? she and i have been through SO much together. she and i have been best friends for a long ass time and it's been [b]awesome[/b]!! we've had many ups and downs throughout our friendship, but i think that it's just made us that much closer! we have had some of the WROSE fights ever. we've gone a long ass time without speaking to each other. but in the end we always end up being friends again. neither of us really want to let go of our friendship because we both know that the other one would be there in a heart beat in the other one needed that one. it's great. fallon and i have done some of the stupidest things together. we just let loose and have fun. fallon is one of the funniest people that i know!
this past year fallon and i went our separate ways for a while. she got into the party scene pretty heavily. i partyed quite a bit too. fallon was also hanging out with a bunch of people that i didn't know...and honestly i didn't really want to get to know. but then we started hanging out again. it's always SOO much fun when we hang out. i don't know what else to say other than she is one of the coolest people that i know. i'm glad that she and i are still really good friends. i don't know what i would do without her. she was talking about moving to texas this coming year. i really hope she doesn't!! i would miss her SOO much!
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| amanda |
| 06.02.04 (6:43 pm) [edit] |
amanda is one of my best friends. she is really cool. what i like about her most is that she doesn't give a fuck what anythings about her and she tells it how it is. no matter what is going on. it's great. it's helped me out a lot. i was one of those people that you could push around and walk all over. finally i wouldn't let people do that to me...which of course made me a bitch. but i don't care. i needed to do it. i can't take it anymore. i'm sick of all the fucking drama and i'm sick of people thinking they can tell me what to do. now i just say fuck you and that's it. i realized that a lot this year.
amanda and i had a couple of classes together this year. it was a lot of fun. especially gym class. we made a lot of new friends in gym class. it was great..everyday was a new experience and a lot of fun! i'm going to miss that. but i definitely won't miss the school or the fucking drama!
i'm working part time with amanda this summer! it should be a lot of fun! i can't wait to start!
another thing about amanda is she hates drama. it's good, she doesn't put up with it at all. she helped me a lot by telling me that i'm stupid and shouldn't even care what those dumb whores say or think about me. whenever amanda and i hung out we just had a good time and made the most of it. NO drama what so ever when we hang out..which is awesome. i don't know what i would have done without amanda this year. she is more than a friend to me, she's like my sister. amanda and i can be complete bitches to each other and then a minute later everything is completely fine and we don't really talk about it. we just let it go. most of the time it's just us joking around. but i know for a fact that if i ever needed amanda for anything she would be there for me. and she knows that if she ever needed me for anything i would be there in a heart beat for her.
the best part about all this is, amanda and i are sitting next to each other at graduation. it's awesome that i get to sit next to my best friend on our graduation day. it's going to be a blast! i can't wait!!
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| nickname....this is creative...let me tell you |
| 06.02.04 (6:25 pm) [edit] |
ok, here's a funny thing. basically for a long period of time stephanie's msn screen names were all about me. one of her's was..Hey ROLL over...and die! let me explain this to you. jackie, one of my good friends, and i were at her house one day. we were watching a bugs life. and there were these 2 rolly polly bugs. their names were tuck and roll. they were SOO funny, jackie and i cracked up about that for a long time! so we decided to call each other tuck and roll. well jackie was tuck because she said that tuck had a unibrow. i was joking around with her so i told her that was her. so she became known as tuck and then she called me roll! we would goof around about it and she was say tuck and tuck down and then i would say roll and i would roll on the floor. it was a lot of fun!
anyways, about the Hey ROLL over...and die thing. it's the most creative thing. for one it was suppost to hurt me or at least piss me off. it didn't really, it made me laugh. then i heard that it took 3 whole people to come up with that name...i mean, stephanie doesn't have that many brain cells to do that on her own..then it was gabe and lauren were the other 2. it's funny...come on guys how stupid can you get. it made it funnier that they were doing it behind my back and never would say it to my face. hmmm, that must have took a long as time for those 3 to think of something that retarded!! must have hurt their heads think that hard.
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| mike and stephanie friends again...WHO CARES! |
| 06.02.04 (6:10 pm) [edit] |
i thought this was pretty damn funny. stephanie was saying that i was pissed off that her and mike we "friends" again. she said that i freaked out and told jordan about it who told gabe..or something like that. hmmm, nope i'm sorry i don't give a fuck who you are friends with. i heard that stephanie and mike hung out on the deca trip A LOT. and then they were in the pit stop, our school store, when i was and they were talking and being all nice to each other. so i told jordan that. appearently stephanie told gabe that she DID NOT hang out with mike at all. one of the many lies that she told to gabe...it's just funny. but of course she blamed me for it cuz she doesn't have enough fucking guts to just tell the truth. she gets herself into her own mess!
the funny part about that whole thing is we all used to be really good friends..mike, gabe, jordan, stephanie, and i. then stephanie started to hate mike, then jordan, then me, and now gabe?? i'm not sure if gabe hates mike..but they aren't friends anymore. anyways, stephanie made a HUGE deal about gabe being friends with mike still because she didn't like mike. those boys have been best friends for 7 years. so just because she was pissed off at mike she expected gabe to do the same thing. it was funny. then finally gabe ended his friendship with mike for more reasons than just stephanie, but she had a big part in it. then stephanie said that i was the one making or i mean forcing jordan not to be friends with mike. it was total bullshit. i NEVER once told jordan that i he couldn't be friends with mike. jordan is a big boy and can make his own decisions. unlike stephanie i don't tell my boy friend what to do and if he doesn't do it, get all pissed off. i talked to quite a few people about it and they were all laughing at her because they know that it was stephanie that made gabe not be friends with mike and jordan choice on his own not to be friends with mike again. it's just hilirious how stephanie does something and then says that i did! what a stupid cunt!
anyways, that was another thing stephanie was saying. she so stupid sometimes it amazes me..i wonder how the hell she got through school.
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| caught in a lie |
| 06.01.04 (9:14 pm) [edit] |
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stephanie one day decided to tell me about how mike tried to kiss her. we were down in my basement and jordan was with her. this was her first story. she said that her and mike were in her parents room and he leaned in to kiss her and did. she pushed him off and said that she was totally disquessed. and then called some other guy and went to the movies with him...i'm not sure if mike went with them or not..i can't remember..but there stephanie makes herself out to be the innocent party in it. first of all i don't know why she felt the need to tell me..cuz i didn't ask..she openly shared this information. then jordan went to mike and asked him about it and mike freaked out. he said that him and stephanie were in her parents room and they both decided to make out. then it was too weird or something like that and they left. but she kissed him back. sooo, then stephanie's story changed when the boys freaked out. it was really funny. she caused her own drama there. it was pretty damn funny. she lied about something really stupid.
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| straighting out the lies |
| 06.01.04 (8:26 pm) [edit] |
ok, well i've heard some of the things that stephanie and emily have been saying about me. first of all they say that i have herpes. both of them say that they know for a fact that i have them. so i got a ? for those two....when was the last time you have looked at my crotch? pretty sure you never have...but yet you know that i have them??? hmmm, sounds a little strange to me. but yeah. but i'll say it again. i [b][u]DO NOT [/u][/b]have herpes. and if you don't believe me you can just go to hell. i don't give a fuck!
then stephanie said that jordan and i went into the bathroom at his house the night that his car broke down and i watched jordan pee. hmm, nope that didn't happen. i guess that if you are a dumb whore i can kind of see where you would get that cuz you are just so fucking stupid. but no, what happened there was jordan and i were goofing around. he was tickling me and we were in the bathroom. the door was open the whole time and stephanie and emily where in the front room. i turned the water on to wash my hands. but see stephanie is so pathetic and stupid that it sounds like someone peeing i guess. strange though..but yeah. so i never watched jordan pee.
another thing. stephanie sits there and says that all jordan and i do is fuck. pretty funny. you shouldn't be saying anything about that at all. i'm pretty sure that you've fucked more people than i have and that's basically all you do...and i've heard that stephanie isn't even good in bed. that would suck to have that rep. but i guess if you are going to be easy like her...you better be good at what you do.
stephanie lost her cell phone for a while. of course right off the bat she said that i stole it. well nope i didn't. actually jordan took it. i found out about it after claire asked me about it. i was really confused and jordan told me about it. stephanie is so fucking stupid. if i would have taking her fucking cell phone i would have smashed it and then giving it back to her. jordan thought that it would be funny to see her freak out and look for it. which happened...stephanie is one of the BIGGEST drama queens ever. it made me laugh...she blames me for EVERYTHING! oh well, it makes me laugh.
stephanie said that mrs. houghton doesn't like me at all and bitches about me all the time. she even said that i could ask john and some other people. so i did. they told me no and even mrs. houghton told jordan that she didn't hate me at all. the only thing there was that jordan told her not to call my house because he didn't like it when she did and she thought that she couldn't call my house because my mom and i didn't want her to. but i talked to her about it and everything is fine now.
stephanie also said that mrs. houghton and evie found lube and condoms in the back of evie's jeep and they were freaking out. but jordan talked to his mom about it and she said it never happened. what happened was jordan's dog knocked stephanie's purse on the floor and a condom feel out of her purse. mrs. houghton picked it up and put it back in her purse and told evie about it. that is what they were freaking out about. plus the fact that stephanie and gabe were the ones that got caught doing shit downstate.
ohh, stephanie just lately said that i called her house and said, give me my cell phone back or something like that and then hung up on her. right...like i'm going to take time out of my life to actually call you.. but wait, then i'm going to say something stupid and then hang up. who knows if that really happened...stephanie probably just made it up to make herself feel special...i guess if that's what she needs...that's cool. but no i didn't call her house.
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| dumb whore lies about a fight |
| 06.01.04 (8:11 pm) [edit] |
ok, so after that stephanie started asking me what's wrong and all this shit. i didn't really want to talk to her. finally she got me to talk. of course i had to do it on the internet. she told me that she didn't want to be my friend anymore. i was basically like no big loss. of first i was trying to be like i don't want to fight i want to save our friendship and all that bullshit just cuz i knew it would be easier for everyone if i did. but nope stephanie is so fucking retarded. so we got into a huge fight. it was funny.
ohh, one thing i forgot was gabe and i got into a i guess you could say fight..he was talking shit about stephanie behind her back which pissed me off. for one it made me wonder if jordan did it. another was i didn't think that it was fair to stephanie to have her boy friend talk shit about her behind her back. i know everything that was said, but since gabe and i are cool and i don't want to start shit with gabe cuz i think he's cool and i want to be his friend. anyways, so i told gabe off. i was pissed..he also was telling jordan that he felt sorry for him cuz apperently i was still in love with hutch. i'm glad you know that for a fact..hmmm, pretty sure i wasn't..but ok..it was good to know. so i didn't want stephanie to be pissed at me cuz i knew gabe would bullshit her about the whole thing..so i choose not to tell her. i just went over to her house to tell her that gabe and i got into a fight and that we probably won't be hanging out as much as we did before..but i didn't want it to affect her's and my friendship. that's all i said..but stephanie went on to say that i was bitching about gabe and all this shit. nope never happened..that's exactly what happened. but she can live in her little fantisy world.
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| fighting begins |
| 06.01.04 (7:58 pm) [edit] |
ok, stephanie and i used to be alright friends. i always knew that we were only friends because of gabe and jordan. stephanie is dating gabe and i'm dating jordan and they are brothers and best friends. so we would always be hanging out together. so obviously we were gonna be friends. i'll addmit stephanie was pretty cool for a while. we had some good times. i won't lie about that cuz it's the truth and that's what i'm gonna tell. then stephanie started doing stupid shit. she would tell me things that jordan "said" and would get me all pissed off at him and cause fights between us. it is my fault to for actually listening to her, but we were suppost to be pretty good friends so i thought she wouldn't be a dumb whore and lie to me. i was WRONG!
then finally jordan and i talked about stephanie and the things she said, he told me they were all bullshit and told me how she liked to start shit. i was like i wouldn't have really thought that of her cuz i didn't want to..but didn't really surprise me in the least bit. so i decided not to listen to her anymore and just talk to jordan about what i heard.
then i would sit there and listen to stephanie bitch about gabe for i would definitely have to say about a month straight..it was horrible!! they fought ALL the time. it was insane. so i would sit there and listen to her and then when she asked me to i would help her out. i did the same with gabe. they would both be talking to me and asking me to help or tell the other one something. i didn't really mind it at first, but after a while it was overwhelming...yet i didn't tell her to quit bitching to me about it cuz you over react about EVERYTHING you dumb whore. she put SOO much stress on gabe. it was so stupid, the things that she got mad at him about. it made me laugh. i felt really bad for gabe.
anyways, whenever jordan and i got into a fight, which would seem really bad, but weren't. stephanie would be like ok what's going on...ohh this is what you should do. she always asked me about what's going on with jordan and me and would ask me if i was going to break up with him and shit like that. so she was always the one asking me about jordan's and my realtionship. then stephanie had the fucking nerve to say to me that she is sick of listening to me bitch about jordan to her. i was like whoa what the fuck? i would tell her when she asked me and i was the one sitting there listening to her bitch about gabe. that seems a little strange.
then she went on to tell me that no one in their right minds thinks that jordan and i are going to last. hmmm, well i think we are. jordan and my relationship is the best relationship i've ever had. he's my best friend and my boyfriend and i love him more than ever! i don't know what i would do without him. it pissed me off that she said that. she said that she was just being honest with me cuz that's what friends do. well there is a difference with being honest and then being a bitch! you weren't honest..you were just a bitch!
after that things just went downhill from there. before that i was getting really annoyed with stephanie and i didn't really want to be here friend..but i knew that i had to cuz i was going to be around her a lot because of gabe and jordan. so i just stopped really talking to her or hanging out with her.
then one day stephanie needed jordan's car to go babysit. well jordan HATES stephanie and has for a long time. i had to ask jordan to be nice to her cuz she and i were still friends and it was his brother's girl friend. so he said just cuz i asked he would. but back to the car thing. jordan didn't want to let stephanie take his car to go babysit. first of all it's his car..gabe's not her bitch and shouldn't have to drive her ass all around. it's not their fault that stephanie is a fucking moron and didn't get her drivers license...i mean come on stephanie is fucking 18 and doesn't have her license. she didn't even take fucking drivers ed. 2nd of all, her parents are responsible for getting her place not gabe. third of all get your fucking licenes you dumb bitch!
ohh, and i guess that stephanie freaked out that she couldn't have the car to go babysit. i hear that is the reason that she started hating me. pretty damn funny if you ask me. and i'm not the only one that thinks that either. well i've written a lot in this entry so i'm going to start a new one.
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| My Turn |
| 06.01.04 (7:35 pm) [edit] |
ok, you know what, i'm sick of hearing all the shit that these stupid whores are saying about me. it's complete bullshit. they spread these gay ass rumors about me and then lie about it. it's actually pretty funny, but they need to fucking grow up...come on we are about to graduate from high school!! when i say some stupid whores i'm talking about stephanie and emily. it's funny, stephanie talks a lot of shit about me behind my back, but whenever we are face to face she is the nicest person to me. it makes me laugh. she [b]cannot [/b]be mean to me to my face at all! which makes her that much more pathetic. she sits there and bitches about me at her lunch table and then she [u]trys [/u] to bitch me out on her stupid diary thing. it just makes me laugh. stephanie is the biggest fucking moron EVER!! so my next few entries are just basically going to lay out all her shit...since she decided that she was going to [b]try[/b] to lay all my shit out...but too bad she doesn't know what the fuck she is talking about. stephanie writes in her fucking diary things she wish happened..not reality..so i'm here to tell you what's really going on.
i'm also going to tell you about other people and shit that is going on. just so you know the truth and not bullshit that stephanie feeds you.
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