This weekend was VERY interesting! I had a blast. Of course Jordan came up on Thursday! It was really nice to see him. I miss him SOOO much when he's gone during the week, but I understand that he has to go. Soon enough we won't have to deal with the distance anymore!:wink: :D Then Jordan's family came up.

Friday we hung out and talked with his family. Then Saturday was SOOOO much fun. Fallon ended up calling me at Jordan's house. We were watching his little sister. She came over and we hung out and talked. I hadn't seen Fallon in a long ass time. We've talked, but I've been busy with school and Jordan and she's been busy with Jesse and work. But we went out to Boyne Mountain for the Crazy Day's thing. It was a lot of fun. It was more of a side party than the actually party. Fallon and I watched a couple of guys slide down the hill on a sled so we decided to do it too. We were on a plastic sled that just fit us. Fallon was wearing some guys goggles because in the front of the sled you get sprayed the worst. So here we are sitting on the black diamond ski hill and we are about to go down it. Granted we weren't all the way at the top, about half way or more. We sat on the hill forever. We were just laughing and laughing about something that happened earlier. Then we were like, ummm this doesn't seem to be the best idea..but we were like what the hell, it will be fun. So I let go of my feet and off we go!! We went SOOOOOOOO fuckin fast down the hill. We almost took out a kid playing on the hill. At first I was like this isn't so bad..then the farther down we got the worst it got. Fallon and I were laughing and laughing then screaming. Fallon was getting sprayed in the face by all the snow. Then it was coming over her on to me. It was great. At the end of the hill where we are trying to stop, I had to stand up and get off the sled because I was sitting on snow, NOT the sled anymore. Fallon was completely covered in snow. We were both soaking wet, completely numb, but it was AWESOME! So we sat in wet clothes for the rest of the time. A lot of other things happened when we were there, but it's best not to share too much! :lol: Let's just say we had a good time!

Anyways, today has proved to be just as interesting. SOOO much has happened, yet I don't feel like I should say. LoL But it's been a good day. I'm just getting ready for school to be on pause for a little bit! It's going to be REALLY nice. For Spring Break I'm going downstate to Jordan's house and his little sister is on Spring Break too, so I get to hang out with her and take her to the mall and whatnot. I love his little sister, she is really funny. The only bad thing about Spring Break is that I'm going to be freaking out cuz I have SOOO much damn homework to do..it's the end of the year and ahhhhhhhhhhhh all my classes are just piling it on! I hate it!! I think that I'm gonna do A LOT of homework over break so that I don't have to think about it.

Then the summer will be here, which is going to be AWESOME! I can NOT wait until I can take out my jet skiies again!! WOO HOO! I'm pretty sure sometime this summer Jordan and I are gonna head down to Florida to visit my Aunt and Uncle and cousin. We aren't going this year because of the wedding and I can't stop thinking about Florida! I WANT TO GO!! Then I'm going to get my hair done down there and I'm going to let this guy do WHATEVER he wants to it..change the color, cut it off..whatever. It's time for a change. So I'm looking forward to that. It will be nice. I can also get a GREAT tan when I'm down there..WOO HOO! Lookin forward to that too.

Well that is all I can think of for now. Have a great day!

Today when I got home from class, my dad was recording on to a tape the Basketball Banquet from my senior year. It was SOOO funny! He has been putting a lot of the films onto video tapes. It been interesting to watch them. But the basketball banquet brought back a lot of memories. I miss basketball SOOO much! I still can't believe that it's over. I could have gone on to play at some colleges, but I decided not to and stay here. I miss junior year of basketball a lot too. It was awesome, we had 7 girls on the team and we all got a long for the most part. We were an AWESOME team, but everyone that year took their turn getting hurt, which sucked because we didn't really get to play as a team during the season, but on the off season it was awesome! We beat some really tough teams! It was great! I think we did better during the summer because Tamm, our coach, just kind of sat back and didn't do anything. It was nice!

Anyways, my last year of basketball kind of sucked because I was the only senior, we lost A LOT of games, and our team was SOO damn divided. Jen and Erin were one group, Casey and Carrie where another, then the twins were in their own little group. I mean, it was just stupid! Jen and Erin were bitches most of the time. Jen would always interupt me when I would be doing something. She didn't like the fact that I was captain. It was annoying as hell! We had a team meeting that didn't go so well. It turned into Jen trying to bitch at me and Jackie. Lauren let her have it which was HILARIOUS!! I also said somethings back to her, but I was trying to be nice because the whole point of the meeting was trying to get our team together, but in the end it seemed to just push us apart.

Anyways, I had a blast goofing around with Lauren and Jackie. Coach told me one time that Lauren and I looked alike, he said that she looks like my little sister. He said that we hang out and talk A LOT too. It was funny, so from then on I called Lauren "Lil Sis" and she started calling me "Big Sis" so that is how that all happened. But I think that Jackie, Lauren, and myself made the best out of it that we could. We lost a lot of games, but not always by a lot. Which was nice, we definitely could compete with the teams we played. I remeber our last game!! OMG, it was really bad, TC West KICKED our asses! The stupid camara guy took a picture of me crying the last few seconds of the game and put it in the newspaper, the next day EVERY single one of my teachers gave me a copy of it. I was like AHHHHHHHHH I didn't want it. I got a lot of support from people telling me good job and we are going to miss you. It was nice, but I miss the time hanging out with Jackie, Lauren, and Kelsie, we were all buddies. Oh well that's how life goes huh?

Anyways, back to the banquet, I listened to Coach talk about Lauren. Now I had completely forgot about the banquet..I mean, if I didn't watch this tape I probably would have forgotten about this..but I don't know how I could have. Anways, Coach was talking about Lauren and how she "twitched" It was SO fucking funny!! I was laughing my ass off just watching it. He said that he would put her in the game and she would dive for a ball and she would come up and would be "twitching" so he'd get worried about her and would pull her out of the game. He'd ask her if she was ok and she'd say yeah and he would put her back in. (Now just so you know, I'm writing what he said at the banquet.) Then she would do it again and she would come up twitching. Then after 4 games "He realized that she's just a Twitcher"...LoL. It was SOO funny! Then he talked about Jackie and said all these wonderful things about her and how GOOD of a basketball player she is, and she REALLY is!! Jackie is an all around AWESOME basketball player! It was funny cuz I was sitting in between Lauren and Jackie and my dad was video taping us. The look on Jackie's face was priceless. Most of the time when my dad was video taping us, we were all talking and joking around. It was funny.

Then he said some nice things about me and said that "I'm a hard person to say goodbye to." Then Jackie and I gave Coach his presents that the team bought him and then Coach gave out awards for the year. Jackie and I made 2nd Team All Conference, Casey got the Northmen Award, Kelsie got the Most Improved Player Award, and Jackie and I got Most Valuable Player Awards. It was AWESOME getting to share that award with Jackie because she definitely deserved it. Then I gave a speech about Coach, my teammates, and how I'm going to miss it. And then it was over!!! It was just weird. I felt like writing about it. We had some awesome games last year, one in Cheboygan, Gaylord at Home of course, and whatnot! I really miss basketball.

Aww man, I LOVE Green Day! They are definitely one of my favorite bands!! I love their songs, their CD is AWESOME!! Jordan and I listen to their CD a lot. Their songs are just really good! Here are a few songs off their CD, they are my favorites!!:D:

Wake Me Up When September Ends

Summer has come and past.
The innocent can never last.
Wake me up when September ends.

Like my fathers come to pass,
Seven years has gone so fast.
Wake me up when September ends.

Here comes the rain again,
Falling from the stars.
Drenched in my pain again,
Becoming who we are.
As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost.
Wake me up when September ends.

Summer has come and past.
The innocent can never last.
Wake me up when September ends.

Ring out the bells again.
Like we did when spring began.
Wake me up when September ends.

Here comes the rain again,
Falling from the stars.
Drenched in my pain again,
Becoming who we are.
As my memory rest,
But never forgets what I lost.
Wake me up when September ends.

Summer has come and past.
The innocent can never last.
Wake me up when September ends.

Like my fathers come to pass.
Twenty years has gone so fast.
Wake me up when September ends.

Extraordinary Girl

She's an extraordinary girl
In an ordinary world
And she can't seem to get away
He lacks the courage in his mind
like a child left behind
like a pet left in the rain
she's all alone again
wiping the tears from her eyes
some days he feels like dying
she gets so sick of crying
she sees the mirror of herself
an image she wants to sell
to anyone willing to buy
he steals the image in her kiss
from her heart's apocalypse
from the one called whatsername
she's all alone again
wiping the tears from her eyes
some days he feels like dying
some days it's not worth trying
now that they both are finding
she gets so sick of crying

She's a Rebel

She's a rebel
she's a saint
she's the salt of the earth
and she's dangerous
she's a rebel
vigilante
missing link on the brink
of destruction
from chicago
to toronto
she's the one that they call
Old whatsername
she's the symbol
of resistance
and she's holding on my
heart like a handgrenade
is she thinking
what i'm thinking?
Is she the mother of all bombs?
Gonna detonate
is she trouble?
Like i'm trouble?
Make it a double
twist of fate
or a melody that
she sings the revolution
the dawning of our lives
she brings this liberation
that i just can't define
nothing comes to mind

Are we the Waiting

Starry nights city lights
coming down over me
sky scrapers and stargazers in my head
are we we are, are we we are the waiting unknown
this dirty town was burning down in my dreams
lost and found city bound in my dreams and screaming
are we we are, are we we are the waiting and screaming
are we we are, are we we are thr waiting
forget me nots and second thoughts live in isolation
heads or tails and fairytales in my mind
are we we are, are we we are the waiting unknown
the rage and love, thr story of my life
the jesus of suburbia is a lie and screaming
are we we are, are we we are the waiting unknown
are we we are, are we we are the waiting unknown
are we we are, are we we are the waiting unknown
are we we are, are we we are the waiting unknown

Give Me Novacaine

Take away the sensation
Inside my bittersweet migrain in my head
It's like a throbbing toothache of the mind,
I can't take this feeling anymore
Drain the pressure from the swelling
This sensations over whelming
Give me a long kiss goodnight
And tell me everything will be alright
Tell me that I won't feel a thing
Give me novacaine
Out of body and out of mind
Kiss the demons out of my dreams
I get the funny feeling and that's alright
Drain the pressure from the swelling
This sensation's over whelming
Give me a long kiss goodnight
And everything will be alright
Tell me Jimmy I won't feel a thing.

Yes it pretty much was.

Now this is the most fucked up thing ever. I still can't believe it happened. I still imagine that Matt is alive and at college doing his thing and is happy, but that is not the case.

On January 25th, Fallon had called my cell phone and left a voice message. She said something along these lines, "Hey Jill, I'm just calling you because I was wondering if you have heard about Matt. So call me back when you get this." Well at that time Fallon liked a boy named Matt, so I didn't think much of it. I wasn't going to call her back until later, but decided to just call then. So I did. She was like OMG Jill I'm so sorry. I was like what the hell are you talking about? She told me that Matt was in a car accident and was killed instantly. I was like WHAT?! I was actually VERY confused. I didn't know who she was talking about. I thought it was this guy Matt Wilson from my school. Then she said no it's Matt...I was like what!?! My brain was just not accepting this knowledge. I didn't want to hear it, I didn't want it to be true, but it was.

I use to stay up to all hours of the night talking to Matt. We almost started dating, but shit happens..I back out. Broke his heart and we went back to being just friends. We had many fights and many good times, I just wish he was still alive today so we can have more good times.

Anyways, I was at Jordan's house in P-town when I found out. I instantly freaked out and was balling. Jordan tried to hold me, but I was so freaked out, if I went into more detail with Matt's and my relationship you would understand. So I ran into the livingroom where Stephanie and Lauren were..Gabe was there too. I was balling and Stephanie and Lauren were both like what the hell is wrong..It took me a while to get it out, but I finally told them. Stephanie just sat there and hugged me.

Later, Tim called me balling. Tim was Matt's best friend. He was in a complete panic. He just wanted to talk. So I sat there and talked to him, but what do you say??! I didn't know. He told me what happened to Matt.

Matt and his other best friend were driving home from a basketball game. Matt was the captain of the team. It was snowing out and it was icey. They were just about home and an ambulance was coming at them really fast. The driver, Matt's best friend, swerved the car and it started fish tailing. The ambulance hit Matt's side of the car and it killed him instantly. He flew out of the car and he was wearing his seat belt. The ambulance was going over 70 mph. Every bone in his body was broken. His jaw was up at his eyes. It was just a mess. Matt's best friend was barely hurt, just a couple of bumps and bruises. Now he lives with the guilt of killing his best friend. I'm not saying that it's his fault, but if you were in his situation you would understand.

Now this was really hard for me. I couldn't believe that this was happening. Matt was only 18. That's it!! He wasn't out of high school yet. He had so many dreams and goals that he's never going to be able to accomplish. He had a full ride to Grand Valley that he didn't get to go to. It's just so fucking sad when shit like this happens. Sometimes I don't believe it. I still have ALL the emails that he sent me and they are really cute. Just telling me how much he likes me and how beautiful I am. He was just a great guy and he was going somewhere with his life. He was a good friend and I miss him dearly. We had a song together..it was a really popular song when we were really good friends. I deticate this song in his memory..From me to Him. I miss you and love you Matt!! Rest In Peace!

Hears to the Night By: Eve 6

So denied so I lied are you the now or never kind
In a day and a day love I'm gonna be gone for good again
Are you willing to be had are you cool with just tonight
Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well

Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon

Put your name on the line along with place and time
Wanna stay not to go I wanna ditch the logical
Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well

Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon

All my time is froze in motion
Can't I stay an hour or two or more
Don't let me let you go
Here's a toast to all those who hear me all too well

Here's to the nights we felt alive
Here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
Here's to goodbye
Tomorrow's gonna come too soon

Well I found this interesting and I’m wondering what other people think about this. Cloning!!

Yesterday in Bio we watched this video clip on cloning. As most people know we have cloned sheep and cows. But now we have moved on to something new. We are cloning cats and soon dogs.

How are they going to do this you might ask? Well, this is how it works. They take cells out of the cat and they only need one cell to do this. Then they take a female cat and take an egg out of her. There they take out her chromosomes and replace them with the 1^st cats chromosomes. After that has been completed they place the egg into a 3^rd cat who is there considered the segregate. Then when the 3^rd cat gives birth, the 1^st cats DNA is the same as the kittens DNA. So therefore you have an identical cat.

There are people out there that are asking to have their cat or dog cloned. This one lady has paid around 2 million dollars just to have her dead cat cloned. It cost a lot because of the storage and the other obvious reasons.

Now I think it is one of the dumbest ideas to clone your cat or dog. I mean, there are so many cats and dogs out there that need homes. Besides that a lot of people want to “control the pet population” as Bob Barker says. So now here we are adding to it. I understand the sentimental value, but it’s just creepy and weird. Besides that, just because it has the same DNA as the 1^st cat, doesn’t mean that it’s going to have the same personality as the 1^st cat.

Those are my thoughts on cloning cats and dogs. Don’t get me wrong I love cats and dogs. I have 3 cats and 2 dogs and I love them to death, but I would never clone them. But I would love to hear thoughts from anyone else who reads this. So please let me know what you think and what your thoughts are on cloning cats and dogs.